after Christianity

I am freer to love and embrace others now that I’m not a Christian. The seed of “one-way-only” sprouts to become a narrow-mindedness that excludes others, and grows into an “us vs them.” Very cultish. And for or years I thought, “if only I prayed harder, or had more faith, God would deliver me and my loved ones of pain and suffering, of our problems. And where did that get me? My problems only got bigger, because I didn’t take responsiblity for them. I didn’t seek help outside of my limited, closed-minded faith. I didn’t have the answers, but “God did.” Either that or “God was testing me.” A very narrow and crippling mindset.