Sarah Green

Screen Shot 2019-04-12 at 10.38.25 AMThirty-five years ago in my mind Sarah and Joshua Green were the lucky ones. I mean, what applied to my and other’s children didn’t always apply to them. They had hamsters, dogs, Josh had model cars, model airplanes, and Sarah collected antiques. Steve made our kids throw their fun into the garbage: Nathan his legos, Ruth her doll, Simon his guitar. Plus Sarah and Josh got away with doing things the other kids couldn’t.

But today I look back, and I realize I was wrong. They suffered immensely. Joshua because he could never break free of his mom and dad’s will, their grip, their claim on his life for their “army.” It was all he knew. If he left, where would he go, what would he do? Sarah because she had her own mind, her own dreams apart from what her mom and dad planned for her. I remember the first time she ran away as Jim and Lila prepared to leave for the Philippines. They had to cancel their flight, and after finding her the next day, they rebooked their flights, and they took her with them, and when they returned they left her there for five long months. They were going to teach her a lesson.

I can only speculate why Jim and Deborah ordained Sarah to marry Mike Brandon, then Peter Royce, now Peter Green, when she was 17 years old. Mike was a favorite of the Green’s, a diehard believer that Deborah received daily “words of the spirit” from God. Also Peter’s father was a wealthy business man from LA who supported his son’s choice “to serve god,” and he financially gave to the “ministry.” So it was a win-win for Sarah to Mary Peter, plus it would keep Sarah put, at lest for awhile.

(This was actually Peter’s second marriage within ACMTC. I hear his first wife (Mary Royce) asked too many questions, but whatever the reason, Deborah told Peter to drive her to Reno and drop her off  drove on the side of the road. She was pregnant, and Deborah didn’t like her.)

Sarah and Mike had two boys, plus Sarah cared for M.G. (who landed Deborah in prison on charges of mental, physical, and sexual child abuse) as her own. Sarah loved M.G. I can only imagine the conflict she endured as she watched the very fabric of her life being torn. She loved those babies, but because of her parent’s psychotic claim on her life, and now on the lives of her children, she knew that if she left, she couldn’t take her babies. Peter and her mom and dad would not have it. They’d stand in her way, block her from going out the gate.  So on the most difficult day of her life, Sarah ran away, leaving her children behind, hitchhiking from New Mexico to Washington where a former ACMTC member lived, staying in homeless shelters along the way. She would later return to N.M. to try to get her kids, but to no avail.

Last month I thought a lot about seeing Sarah again. I’ve tried in vain over the years to find her. She was 12 years old last I saw her, and now she’s going on 46! Was she angry with me for exposing her mom and dad, and all the trouble it caused them? Was she really going to testify AGAINST her mother?

I met her before getting into the car to go to the courthouse. “Okay, let’s do this, she says, “I love my mombut she’s crazy.” And on our last night, on the day of her giving testimony at trial, she says, “I felt absolutely no emotion seeing her. She’s like an empty shell.” 

I gave her a card with a painting of a cactus on the front, with the inscription, I’m sorry I’m such a prick. I told her I was sorry for all the pain and heartache she’s suffered over the years, and sorry if I added to it by my lawsuit and all that occurred after.

Tears fell down her beautiful face and she flung her arms around me, holding me tight. “My mother’s a monster,” she says,  “All the shame, leaving my babies. I had to escape, I just had to, and there’s no way I could have taken my babies with.”

“Those memories will always be yours”, I said, “but the shame, the blame, the guilt: those don’t belong to you, they belong to Deborah. 

In the end she gave me something I’ll cherish for the rest of my life. Holding me tight she says to me, “thank you for paving the way.” 

Screen Shot 2018-10-09 at 9.03.18 AMBack row: Deborah, Jim, Joshua, Peter (behind Filipino man), and Sarah. (Circa 1983)

IMG_2715                                                              Sarah and Nate, my son 

IMG_2717                                                                Julie and Sarah.

So Sarah left ACMTC running, and she hasn’t stopped. Today at age 45 she’s a triathlete. She says it’s how she copes.

Is the Trump presidency a religious cult?

Off subject, but not. This whole Trump phenomena has me stumped. The narcissism, the gaslighting causes me to feel it all over again. The self-aggrandizing (“only I can do it”), the lying to deceive and cover up. Very familiar, and most people who have experienced the internal trappings of a cult cult will tell you the same.

—>Source: Is the Trump presidency a religious cult?

a narcissist

“A narcissist uses their religious belief to manipulate, control and dominate you through fear. They systematically take the life out of your faith and replace themselves in the center.

It doesn’t matter the religion. Major organizations such as Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, and Jewish or even minor sects such as Mormon, Taoism, Confucianism, New Age, or Rastafari can be used. Even those who do not profess a belief in God such as Atheistic, Agnostic, or Satanism can be included.

It is not the type of belief but rather how the faith is used that makes it abusive.

Christine Hammond MS, LMHC

https://pro.psychcentral.com/exhausted-woman/author/christineh/

‘Army of God’ Cult Leader Sentenced for Sex Crimes Against Kids | PEOPLE.com

—>Source: ‘Army of God’ Cult Leader Sentenced for Sex Crimes Against Kids | PEOPLE.com

Deborah Green of the Aggressive Christianity Missions Training Corps’ sentenced for child abuse – CBS News

—>Source: Deborah Green of the Aggressive Christianity Missions Training Corps sentenced for child abuse – CBS News

‘Aggressive Christianity’ cult leader sentenced

Screen Shot 2018-09-27 at 2.41.36 PMDeborah Green told M.G she was cursed because she came from Africa, and she used her as a child slave. During mealtimes M.G. sat alone on the floor in the corner of the communal dining area, and Deborah would give her a bowl of leftover, sometimes rotting food, and she’d make her eat it within 5 minutes, and after 5 minutes she’d take the food away. If. M.G. vomited while eating, Deborah made her eat that too.

Sexually Deborah abused her, putting her finger and objects up her vagina. M.G. asked her, “why are you doing this to me,” and Deborah’s reply was, “It’s not me doing it, it’s god!”

A weaker person would not have survived,” Judge James Sanchez told M.G.. “That means you can continue on being strong.

Screen Shot 2018-09-28 at 8.40.04 AMDeborah Green after sentencing. Where’s her god now?

—>Source: ‘Aggressive Christianity’ cult leader sentenced

Deborah Green found guilty on 7 out of 8 counts!

News from the victum-witness assistant at the DA’s office tonight: Deborah Green found guilty on 7 of 8 counts! This was trial #1 for Deborah regarding kidnapping, abusing, sexually penetrating, and causing great bodily harm to a child, M.G. (The second trial will be regarding the death of the old boy Enoch.)

I had the pleasure of meeting M.G., now 20 years old, and her adoptive mother. They rushed from the courthouse in Grants to the airport in Albuquerque to meet us before our flights. We were so excited, finally we can put a face to her name. Then a beautiful young African-American woman steps off the escalator, strong and tender. Sarah throws her arms around her, tears flooding her eyes. Then it’s Julie’s turn, then mine.

M.G has come a long way since Child Protective Services took her away from the Greens 12 years ago, and she is now strong and  determined to chase her own dreams. I think the saying “if it doesn’t break you it’ll make you” is mostly true. For her it took a loving, supportive, pro-active family, plus multiple painful surgeries and years of psychological therapy. Monsters may lurk outside her bedroom window for years yet to come, but M.G. chooses to live, to be strong, and to create a life that is meaningful to her. Her goal: to become a pediatrician. She’s been accepted into and is studying pre-med! I can’t tell you how happy that makes us feel!

“A weaker person would not have survived,” Judge James Sanchez told the victim. “That means you can continue on being strong.”

 

Study of Cults / Dr. Janja Lalich

Excellent website regarding cults, by Dr. Janja Lalich.

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—>Source: Cult Studies – Study of Cults By Dr. Janja Lalich | Cult Research

Trial begins for ‘Aggressive Christianity’ group leader

Screen Shot 2018-09-24 at 9.09.11 PM—>Source: Trial begins for ‘Aggressive Christianity’ group leader

Ex-Cult Member Will Testify Against Deborah Green in God’s Army Trial | PEOPLE.com

—>Source: Ex-Cult Member Will Testify Against Deborah Green in God’s Army Trial | PEOPLE.com